urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:of_providence andrew brisch08@newpaltz.edu andrew 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:of_providence:84637 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z things that are keeping me up right now:<br /><br />-listening to alison krauss in the most pleasantly hurtful way.<br />-im excited to go home on tuesday. i am, however, already anxious about the 5 days flying by and feeling like i barely saw anyone i actually wanted to.<br />-there are times that i have so many contradicting feelings about me and michael's relationship that i think, literally, that i may burst. with happiness. and with fear. and with confusion. and with so many things. too many things.<br />-im going back to therapy next tuesday. it can't come soon enough.<br />-i dont understand so many parts of myself right now. why don't i think im able to talk about it with michael.<br />-i'm tired of being vilified by my family. it's how it's always been and im afraid it's how it's always going to be.<br />-art. my art! oh my art, my art, my art. the magic is back. and it's given me wings.<br />-so many people--too many people--in my life that i love i haven't spoken to. ari. genna. ruth. cara. ilana. even eden and lindsay. i miss so much.<br />-why couldn't i let go at mr. black on friday? im ready to let go.<br />-i need toni morrison's new book!<br />-i need a dialogue in smithtown. stat.<br /><br />goodnight.